Archive | July, 2011

Back on Track!

30 Jul

Overnight Oats are in the fridge, workout clothes are laid out, and I am READY!  9:30 Zumba class in the AM, and I can’t wait!  No more excuses peeps.  I’ve got this!

What the…..

30 Jul

Well, I was not very successful with gym sessions this week.  I did abs a few nights this week, but didn’t actually get my lazy butt to the gym.  Luckily I stayed in control of my eating, so I don’t feel too bad.

Today is my amazing Husbands 31st birthday, so it’s safe to say I will not be making my way into the gym.  He’s requested Eggs Benedict for breakfast, so it’s probably also safe to say my eating will not be on track today.   I’m already thinking about an iced cold Blue Moon with lunch.

Tomorrow, I get back on track.  Tomorrow, I say hello to my long lost friend, the gym!  I have to tell you, I’ve been going through withdrawals.  I kind of can’t wait to get back into a routine.  I was going to say “my routine”, but let’s be honest, I haven’t really had a routine lately.

Here’s the thing… I feel like sometimes I use “tomorrow” as an excuse.  I think, oh I can have this today, because I promise TOMORROW, I will be strict.  I need to get out of that mindset.  It’s something I’m working on.

Question for you….

How do you stay motivated?

Counting Down

29 Jul

I can already tell its going to be ONE OF THOSE DAYS.  You know the days…  When you go from staring at the clock, to wondering how and why a hurricane just blew through your office.  Oy!  I can tell you right now that coffee is going to be my BFF!

WHY OH WHY is this not my view right now????

paradise

Special Delivery

28 Jul

July 27th, is not an easy day for me.  When I was 17 my grandmother passed away on July 27th.  Years later, we buried my grandfather.   It’s  a heavy day for me.  A day when I feel like I’m sort of in a bubble that’s filled with fog.   Yesterday, was July 27th.  I wouldn’t say I was in a bad mood, but I was certainly in a funk.

It was around 2:30, and I was counting down the final 90 minutes of the work day, when I noticed I had a text message.  I checked my phone and not only was there a text, but a picture attached.  The message was from one of my best friends in the whole world.  When I opened the pic, I started crying.  There, on the screen were 3 pregnancy test, clearly displaying PREGNANT.  I’m not sure I have ever been happier for someone in my entire life.  I sat at my desk, with tears streaming down my cheeks for a good 5 minutes.  I could not contain myself.  I felt nothing put pure joy, and excitement.  It’s still a secret, so I won’t share too much of the story… for now!

I’m sure next year, I’ll still have a heavy heart on July 27th, but I now also have this amazing memory, and I’m so thankful!

Hello world!

26 Jul

Every day I would tell myself  I should find a voice and share it with the world.  Well today, I stopped talking about it, and finally did it.  After 30 years, its time to share myself with the world.  There has always been a part of me that longed to write, ached to share my voice with anyone who would listen.  Today, I stop denying that voice, and I share it with you.  However, you found yourself here, I am grateful for it, and I am thankful that you care to listen.

One thing I promise is to be honest, and in the spirit of honesty,  I’m not entirely sure what my focus will be.  I suppose that is something that will come with time.  So please excuse me while I reconnect with the voice that I have ignored for so long.  My journey to tomorrow started long ago, but is never ending….

30 in 5

26 Jul

I have a goal.  I want to lose 30lbs by New Year’s Eve.  That’s not crazy right?  30 pounds in 5 months is completely doable.  All I have to do is continue to work out, and eat right.  So why when I should be changing into my workout clothes for a Zumba class, am I currently waiting for the oven to buzz and tell me my white garlic pizza is ready?

It’s ongoing battle.  Every day I fight with the me that I know is inside, the me that I know can be free if I just stick to my plan.  Why don’t I stick to my plan?  I’m the most motivated, unmotivated person I’ve ever meant.  I want to change so badly, but I just can’t pull the trigger.   Laziness keeps winning.

I’m going to enjoy every cheesey bite of my pizza, and then in an hour, I’m going to beat myself up.  I’m going to feel gross for giving in, and not going to class.

Tomorrow is a new day… and tomorrow I will not give in.  I promise myself, I WILL NOT GIVE IN TO LAZINESS!